August 11 216
I feel like I am slipping backwards again and I hate it! I have been super depressed this last week, missing Jack again Tuesday because I had an episode. It was the 2 year anniversary of my dad being here for vacation the month before he moved back and ended up in the ICU. It has been difficult to think about my dad because I miss him so fucking much it hurts like it was yesterday still. I dream about him often and think about him at least once a day since he died. I walked around my house today just crying because I was so emotionally overwhelmed I didn't know what else to do.
Ok enough bitching and whining, on a different note these are Jims observations of me since starting Neuro
- More hopeful thinking
- My handwriting has changed quite a bit
- Sees parts of the old me coming out
- Was shocked when I had the realization that I had been somewhat hoarding and took 3 truck loads out of here
- He said that I don't look as lost in my eyes
- Notices a drive in me to get things done
- Said I have seemed like a stronger person
I miss Jack and Freja, fuck this post is so all over the place just like my mind ugh
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